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Age: 19y/o
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Wednesday, April 29, 2009 4:00 PM | 4 comments
17 years of existence
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i know , i sound like an establishment or something because of the title . haha .. 17 years of existence . LOL .. i just turned 17 today . yep ! today :) i don't like talking about it though , i mean , to people . like , i don't want to talk about it (except now ofcourse , since its today) . what's the point of talking about it ? i don't feel like celebrating . you ask why ? because i don't want my parents to bother , i don't want them to spend money . i clearly know we're not rich .. i know that my parents are having a hard time budgeting , and im going to college soon .
im gonna study hard to get what i want , and to help them ofcourse . and send my baby sister to a good school :)
im not really into material things , but bleh ! i want these things right now (ambisyosa . haha .. i only want 4 things materially) :
SONY LAPTOP - color purple but pink would do :)
NIKON CAMERA
BRIDA and BASILISK book :)
yep ! :) these are the things i want so far .
anyways , i just want to thank those people who greeted me a happy birthday ! thank you so much .
Tuesday, April 28, 2009 8:21 PM | 5 comments
happy two months :)
i don't wanna write anything about my lovelife here on blogspot (everything's on the other site) , but one post wouldn't hurt right ? :) oh wells , i just really feel like posting one since it will be our second month together .
NOTE : do you really wanna continue reading ? if YES , no discriminations please . thanks
i WAS that kind of girl who always question those people who are in a long-distance-relationship . its not that i oppose , its just that how can someone possibly love someone whom they haven't seen personally . i mean , who would want that kind of relationship ? i know i didn't . but dang ! i ate my words . yes , im in one right now -- my first .. and my last (well , im planning to keep him forever though) .
one day , i unexpectedly saw myself entering that place ONCE more . the place wherein you'd feel so much happiness , but in the end , it will cause a lot of pain . the butterflies that are inside your stomach .. the feathers that tickle your heart .. the wonderful feeling that you feel when you are in LOVE . yes , cupid aimed for me and BANG ! bull's eye . he didn't even give me any warning that he'd bring me back there .
i don't talk to people on the cyberspace unless they talk to me . all i ever wanted on the cyberspace was to gain friends and to type anything that's bothering my mind (because mom don't know my sites , so she won't be able to read them) .
we started as friends , then bestfriends . he understands me , and i understand him . he may not be my dreamboy , but he's more than what ive dreamed of . where else can i find someone like him ? sweet , smart , friendly , nice , God-fearing , handsome , thoughtful etc .. you'll know what im saying is true if you'll be able to read our chats WHICH is kept private (i posted one convo we had somewhere though) . and im very thankful and blessed for having him in my life .
YES , im definitely planning to keep him forever . YES , he'll be the man on my checklist . YES , i love him and will love him whatever happens (ermm .. sounded like a forbidden love . LOL ..) . YES , i wanna grow old with him . YES , he'll be my sissy's "bayaw" . YES , im never EVER gonna let this guy go :) am i being too clingy ? O.o
so , its my birthday tomorrow , and i didn't know he'd send me a package of gifts O.O it arrived yesterday morning . i was like "huh ?" when the mailman delivered it . i didn't want to open it for a reason i don't know . while playing persona 4 , i just stared at the package thinking i wonder what's inside . but i resisted , but gahh .. my dad arrived and he made me open it . it contained a sketch of me (yes , he draws) , necklace , earrings , photo of him , a letter and rascal flatts cd O_O HE WANTED THAT CD ! but he gave it to me . T_T he's a big fan of rascal flatts , and he hadn't bought a cd for himself yet . it was very sweet of him . T_T
Labels: love
Monday, April 27, 2009 3:53 PM | 0 comments
yiruma
MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com
ive been listening to yiruma's songs lately (my LSS though is our song by taylor swift) . and guess what ? I LOVE IT ! yeah , i love it . because it kinda makes me forget of all my problems (HAH ! as if i have lots . lol)
so , i found out this amazing pianist's existence through my sister . she was always listening to his song entitled "Kiss the Rain" . here's a link where you'll be able to see him perform : http://www.youtube.com/user/zmriri .
PLAYLIST :
- spring time
- destiny of love
- do you
- love me
- if i could see you again
- kiss the rain
- river flows in you (bella's lullaby on twiglight)
- maybe
- dreams
- passing by
- one day you will
- one day i will leave behind (i don't know if its the same with #11)
- moonrise
- i
- love hurts
- its your day
- wait there
- beloved
enjoy listening ! :)
Labels: music
Friday, April 24, 2009 1:45 PM | 2 comments
summer ( past and present )
summer . summer . summer that time of year is equivalent to boredom . YES , for students , summer's the time to rest . no teacher who scolds you early in the morning , no flag ceremony , no homeworks (though some students do their homework at school .. count me in . LOL) , we don't have to spend time to read our books . but after resting , what now ? we can regain our energies within 2weeks only , but summer lasts for 2 months . being at home with no "baon" , no "laag" , no socializing . well , that's for me , because i rarely go out , i don't like the heat of the sun (it causes my head to ache) , and i don't like to see people (friends are excluded) .
for all the 17 summers ive gone through , this summer isn't that boring . why ?
first : we have internet . net for me chases my boredom away
second : my brother DL lots of movies and tv series . i love them :)
third : im gonna attend a summer camp this may 1-3 . im excited :) but oh wells ! i might have second thoughts in attending the said camp
fourth : we're in a new home , and , the atmosphere's different here than THERE . no shouting , no smoking , no loud music .. peace -- its what ive always wanted .
fifth : aside from the net , there's this someone who drives the boredom away too . though we can only talk at 4pm upto 6:45pm .
my classmates who were able to visit me here were like "aren't you bored here ? its so .. quiet" . oohh .. also my cousin who stayed here for 2weeks together with their maid . i kinda feel sorry for them cause i don't think they liked it here .
for 10 years (1-10 yr old) , i never felt the boredom summer causes . i enjoyed watching blue's clues , and smurfs , and other cartoon shows on tv during mornings . i even wake up early just too see them , and if i wake up late , i can still remember me crying cause i wasn't able to see the cartoon . haha .. that WAS before . before i had this thing called "bu-ot" (my gawd ! i dunno what's that is in english . sorry) .
at 11 yrs of age (about to turn 12) , i had adventures . for the first time in my life , i was able to leave home , and go to someone's place to spend the summer there .. take note ! non of my family went with me . i was with a family friend . we went to this Province called Camanlangan at Compostella Valley TWICE .. yes , TWICE . i will never forget that summer .
12-15 years old . dang ! it was those times where in i always complain to my parents that how i wish it was june already cause it was sooooooo boring . and , that was the time when i realize about the "baon" thing . haha .. my sister told me that its better to go to school than stay at home .
16th year of summer . our life became a mess (if you have read my first blog here , which i have deleted just now) . where everything started . though , there was a time when i had fun too cause i attended a summer camp . but still , i can't get it off my mind , what happened that day , should've never happened .
Labels: summer
8:53 AM | 0 comments
PROFILE
UNDER CONSTRUCTION
i just found a site where i could get cool templates :)
i'll be posting after i finish editing the codes
~ april ~
Wednesday, April 22, 2009 7:51 PM | 1 comments
unreached dream
i have always wanted to be a photographer . i can still remember the day when i told mom that i want to take a photography class when i enter college . and , while i was watching a korean drama series wherein the guy was a photographer, my want to be one became more .. ermm .. how do i say this .. its like , i wanted to become a photographer MORE , (GAHHH .. i have to
read more books to widen my vocabulary .)
so , i told mom again that i really really really want to become one . she said that its expensive . i was upset :(
i gave up that dream . tsk
BUT , as im seeing these cool shots from the internet (particularly deviantart website) , i decided to go and reach that dream of being a photographer . maybe not now , but im gonna do that later after everything --- 4year degree course , 1yr review and exam . once i get a stable job after i pass the exam , im gonna buy a nikon (OMG ! im just dying to have a nikon camera) and continue doing what ive always wanted --- to take photos .
Sunday, April 19, 2009 1:57 PM | 0 comments
WOW
im amazed by these beautiful sceneries ! O_O
the first photo looks so .. peaceful ! actually , these four photos looks so peaceful . the second and third one , gahhh .. how i wish i could go there ! well , i will :) someday . wait for me ! :P
the blue skies , the blue ocean . wooosshhh !! *inhale-exhale* WOW ! all i can say is WOW !
P.S.
P.S.
Photos are grabbed from my beloved Jonathan Allen Watson's multiply account .
Labels: photos
12:43 PM | 3 comments
blogspot
im still getting a hang of this blogspot thingy . well , ive been here since june (ermm .. or was it may ?) . my blogs were all about anime reviews . hahaha .. yeah , i love anime , i only watch them during breaks though .
gawd ! i've been searching for templates which i would like , but i can't find any T_T . my current template is so-so though . i want my site to be like minyo's (i actually said her name . LOL) . i don't want mine to be all kawaii though . i don't even know what kawaii means ! O_O
this site is full of randomness :) and the one on worpress is full of love rants . gahh .. im beginning to be random again xD whatever ..
i don't think i still have something to say for the day O_O im waiting for my mind to function ! and its not functioning O_O i mean , i love to write , but no words will come out O_O or so i say . where am i getting ? LOL .. actually , im going now . ahaha ..
Labels: random
Saturday, April 18, 2009 3:02 PM | 0 comments
senior
i never thought i'd miss them so much . i wasn't really that close with them , until they proved that there are still people who can be trusted . im that type of girl who'd rather stay at home than hang out with her friends . i don't like the outside world (outside my house that is) . its full of danger --- dangerous people . yeah , people are dangerous . a word , take note , a WORD can already kill you (if you know what i mean) .
one time , my english teacher said "people build walls to protect themselves" , and im one of those people . my schoolmates/so-called-friends , see me as a threat , and not a friend . they bring me down , instead of helping me get up . and this is why mom can't understand me and i don't want her to know . i kept a low profile during my senior year , which affected my mom -- parents to be exact . because they want me to be one of those students who are sitting at the stage , and getting those medals . BLEHH .. i already had those , when i was in elementary . and i don't want them anymore .
so , i decided to keep a low profile , just when i found TRUE friends . some maybe ermm .. over honest , but it's cool . cause the one whom they are very honest with changes :) uh-huh .. we changed each others lives . if you saw us with our beloved adviser , you'd say "wow ! they're pretty close to each other .." . oh yeah ! that phrase there is based on other sections' reactions when they see us at the mall , at my classmate's house .. anywhere ! with the help of our retreat , we became closer .. i just wish we were given more time to be with each other , but we have to go our separate ways . high school's over .. we're off to college now . i wish everyone goodluck and see you in 5years :)
Labels: OLM class
Friday, April 17, 2009 7:55 PM | 0 comments
guitar and keyboard
gahh .. i miss playing the guitar ! and the keyboard as well (as if i know how to) .
so , i learned how to play the guitar when i was 11y/o . that was almost 6years ago . my grandmother (father's side , the one i hate) , runs a dormitory (but i call it boarding house) . the people there are nice and i was eager to learn , so , one ..... no three ! , volunteered . gawd ! was i glad .
i had a hard time learning it , my fingers were not that flexible , and my hand could barely move from 1fret to another . im glad i managed though ! :) i really wanted to learn , and in able to learn , i have to be patient and bear the pain the guitar strings are causing . LOL .. yeah , my fingers sore . well , i spend almost the whole day trying to learn how to play that thing . and no less than 3 weeks , i learned . yay for me ! so , if i can , you also can .
then , here comes the keyboard . i thought guitar was cooler , but when i saw my music teacher , and my friends during summer camp play it , i was like "WOW!" . when i got the chance to talk to kuya ian (a friend who's really good at this) , i asked him if he could teach me . HE'S SO NICE that he actually taught me from 10pm upto 3am . LOL .. that was during my grandfather's wake . i want to continue learning it , but we don't have a keyboard here T_T .
ermm .. yeah ! im a frustrated musician . xD i don't care though . i love it . my NCAE exam results even tell me that i should get either something that's related to art (more on writing and public speaking though) .
Labels: music