have you ever had the feeling where in you wanted to give up ? you feel so miserable and hopeless, that it even makes you wonder "why am i even here?" (so emo . lol) .

 i have, and i still have that feeling at times . it's not all the time though, but it's bothersome . sometimes i just want to scratch my mind (if that's possible) so hard for that certain thought to disappear, so that i won't even think about it and later on feel the pain .

  everytime that these thoughts appear in my mind, it makes me wish to go back to being a kid with lots of dreams ! right now, i don't have any dream at all, and i really think that that's a bad thing . i call myself a "dreamLESS person" now .

  i was someone who had A LOT OF DREAMS . the one on the photo is just half of it . i think me opening up my eyes to reality made me lose my confidence , made me think negatively, made me realize that my dreams are unreachable and absurd , that i will never make it .

  i need to get back on my feet again .. regain my confidence in myself .. and believe that whatever dream that i WILL (yes cause they were all gone . i need to have a new set of them) have, will come true if only i strive hard and never lose hope .