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i WAS that kind of girl who always question those people who are in a long-distance-relationship . its not that i oppose , its just that how can someone possibly love someone whom they haven't seen personally . i mean , who would want that kind of relationship ? i know i didn't . but dang ! i ate my words . yes , im in one right now -- my first .. and my last (well , im planning to keep him forever though) .

one day , i unexpectedly saw myself entering that place ONCE more . the place wherein you'd feel so much happiness , but in the end , it will cause a lot of pain . the butterflies that are inside your stomach .. the feathers that tickle your heart .. the wonderful feeling that you feel when you are in LOVE . yes , cupid aimed for me and BANG ! bull's eye . he didn't even give me any warning that he'd bring me back there .

i don't talk to people on the cyberspace unless they talk to me . all i ever wanted on the cyberspace was to gain friends and to type anything that's bothering my mind (because mom don't know my sites , so she won't be able to read them) .

we started as friends , then bestfriends . he understands me , and i understand him . he may not be my dreamboy , but he's more than what ive dreamed of . where else can i find someone like him ? sweet , smart , friendly , nice , God-fearing , handsome , thoughtful etc .. you'll know what im saying is true if you'll be able to read our chats WHICH is kept private (i posted one convo we had somewhere though) . and im very thankful and blessed for having him in my life .

YES , im definitely planning to keep him forever . YES , he'll be the man on my checklist . YES , i love him and will love him whatever happens (ermm .. sounded like a forbidden love . LOL ..) . YES , i wanna grow old with him . YES , he'll be my sissy's "bayaw" . YES , im never EVER gonna let this guy go :) am i being too clingy ? O.o

so , its my birthday tomorrow , and i didn't know he'd send me a package of gifts O.O it arrived yesterday morning . i was like "huh ?" when the mailman delivered it . i didn't want to open it for a reason i don't know . while playing persona 4 , i just stared at the package thinking i wonder what's inside . but i resisted , but gahh .. my dad arrived and he made me open it . it contained a sketch of me (yes , he draws) , necklace , earrings , photo of him , a letter and rascal flatts cd O_O HE WANTED THAT CD ! but he gave it to me . T_T he's a big fan of rascal flatts , and he hadn't bought a cd for himself yet . it was very sweet of him . T_T